Ive been reading some really incredible and encouraging new years blogs by a lot of you ladies and so felt compelled to write one of my own. I’m feeling quite strange today, the first day of 2009, so I’m not sure how this entry will turn out…
2008 was a trial. That is the best word I can use to describe this past year. It was a trial for me, it was a trial for my husband and I am glad to see it go. Yet I can’t really have the same sort of New Year excitement that some have — yes, it is a new year, but today is just the day after yesterday, and the day before tomorrow. A day like any other. Yet it is also a day in which I need to again say, “Thank You Lord” and learn to praise Him despite the trials and even for the trials. Last night as we were sitting with dear friends and singing Hey Jude like we like to do (you are all missing out for not having heard our rendition), I was trying to discern how I was feeling. I have spent this past year feeling so cold to the Lord due to many reasons, IF being the major reason, my husband’s high stress job and not having any real close friends (bosom buddies as I like to call them, thanks Anne of Green Gables) are a close second. But 2009 has been rung in with WONDERFUL friends, friends that I know came directly from God, and 2009 will also bring the end of P’s job. So, those are two already wonderful things about 2009.
Who knows if 2009 will bring a pregnancy and a baby. That is what I desperately pray and wish for, as I know many of you are praying and wishing for the same. As I learn to lie down in green pastures with my Saviour, as I learn to go to Him with my desires and not expect a cold, hard “no”, I also know that I need to learn to love Him and thank Him even if I do receive a “no”. SO, its time to go watch football (ew) with some of those previously mentioned bosom buddies, but here’s my glass raised, toasting to 2009 and hoping for a resounding “YES” from God to my deepest desire.
Again, thank you all, all you wonderful fellow bloggers and those few of you who I actually know who read this — you are all wonderful encouragements to me, and I hope to continue to encourage and be encouraged throughout 2009.