I am loved by Christ. I am a wife, a social worker and an infertile. I have created this blog as a means to express all types of emotions and get the thoughts out of my head, but especially for the purpose of hopefully being an encouragement to others out there who are struggling with infertility. I have been encouraged consistently by blogs from women that I have never met, all across the country and have finally decided to try and be one of those women myself.
I will give updates of our journey regularly, but thought it may be helpful to just clue you in a small bit to how my husband (I will call him P) and I got where we are at the moment that I created this blog. P and I (K) got married a little over 2 years ago. After a year of marriage, my uterus was screaming to be filled and so I convinced P to let me go off of birth control. After stopping the pill (which I had been taking for approximately 8 years), I began to have symptoms almost immediately that would usually be associated with going ON the pill. After six months of emotional agony and with no embryo on the horizon, I visited an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). To make a long agonizing story short, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (making me anovulatory) caused by an insulin resistance. My husband was also diagnosed with a slightly low sperm count, but that is something that will need to be tested again to make sure. I tried Metformin for 6 months and one month of Clomid and my uterus is still empty. Back in June, P and I decided that we would not move forward with anymore treatments until he completed an internship that he is committed to until July of 2009. So that’s where we are, I am birth control free, and hoping for a miracle, but am also ready to begin treatments again when we move on to whatever God has for us after P’s internship is completed. I hope that I will be able to encourage you as I learn to live with the Godly desire I have been given for children and the realization that that desire may not ever be fulfilled in the way that I wanted it to be. I am learning to remember everyday that the Lord is MY shepherd, I shall not want.